Summers are always interesting for me. For the past four years I've embarked on somewhat crazy adventures...let's recap.
Summer 2005 - I toured with Revolution Drum & Bugel Corps as drum major. I thought I was big stuff. Well as it turned out, I invested a lot into an organization that ultimately betrayed a lot of hope and trust I had in it. It was a terrible experience for the most part. It was a journey though I will not forget.
Summer 2006 - Interned with Aaron Strumpel, a missional artist/songwriter. I had met Aaron years before and that year we grew closer as he began to mentor a wandering soul. I did some promo, some grant writing and some good relationship building. Many of those relationships still bless me. Aaron and I are still close - he's one of my favorite people.
Summer 2007 - Youth Ministry Intern at First United Methodist Church here in Seguin with my good friend Dan Harrington. It was a great experience. I really learned alot walking along Dan with the youth. We had some good growth together and the kids were great. We planted some seeds for transforming that youth ministry - God willing they will bear fruit.
And that brings us to now. Now, a year after we started The Netzer Co-Op, I'm in some deep soul searching. I'm struggling with the "how" of my vocational discernment, I'm struggling with the fatigue of memories, dreams, fears, and my own brokenness. Over the past two weeks I've done some good soul mapping. I've begun to see things differently and I'm hoping to find the strength to begin again. I'm slowly starting to be real honest with myself about relationships and calling. I'm a bit disappointed and frustrated. But I'm learning to trust again...it's a painful process to grieve what could have been.
I began spiritual direction recently. I sense this will be an important rhythm to live into. I've also moved into a community house and sharing morning prayer and evening prayer here has begun to help me frame my days in a better light.
Over the upcoming months there is much work to be done. I am called into the summer to work behind the scenes - alongside some beautiful people as we begin to take steps towards places we could only begin to imagine God would call us.
T
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